what is Your gift?

What is Your gift?

Hi blog family!!

When it comes to the mind of  children, we start early instilling positive affirmations and dreams so that you donot get scared of facing your gifts and talent and you donot take them for granite!

I found a quote that went with my theme today... 

this quote is by: Stacey A. Maxwell-Krockenberger

What brings you pure joy? 


What do you look forward too? 


Your Purpose is usually hidden in your creative talents & doing


 the things that make you truly happy. 


For those who still may not know what that is; do something


 different today that you've always wanted to do or love to do. 


If it ignites all of your senses and brings laughter chances are 


your purpose could be within it! What are you effortlessly good


 at?


this is a great thought to ask yourself  today:   write it out what you are 

the best at!!

or by now if


 you  more than 15 years old, you should have 


already seen 


what talents or gifts you bring to this world...something YOU do better than any 


other kid...and you know NO one trained you to do it!!


mother's are usually the first to spot




this gift, so if you heard your grandma or case worker always talk about something your special at....!! nurture it..(work on it)....and do everything to make that talent become a money 


maker...(ie..sports, singing, writing, fixing things, inventing things, 

dancing etc....)...find out what your  God 


given


talents are!

 it should be effortless to you!

 while your other friends have to


 practice for years...(singing, dancing, writing, 


art...numbers...building)... you do it so easy....and the best!!!

.most celebrity's became just that 


because they followed their 1st love....Kiki Palmer, Oprah, 

Justin Beber, Chris Brown, J-Zee,


Forbes, Edris Elbis, Haley Barry...they are no "accidents" they


 worked hard and followed dreams...and with help, support and love of a foster 


parent....or a good group home counselor... or social worker...YOU

  can too!! * YOUR dream, not your parents or other adults who are taking care of you wish or dream... if you are not doing


 what you were born to do, (and 80% of the world is not)....you become misarable 


and project that on others...look at all the mean bosses!! I believe the "Rich" are 


rich and in the 8% because they are doing what they love...(don't focus on the bad rumors of how they got rich or famous...no matter how evil or


 how they may have obtained it- they are doing what they love...As 

long as you are following the law and not hurting anyone or yourself 

or demeaning yourself, selling yourself short.........why should foster 


kids miss out on life and settle" for whatever is handed to them?? 

Teach yourself right now, never to "settle" for what is handed to you, 

be grateful but learn how to expect more from yourself and others will

 give you more!!!


 without being greedy or evil,  want and expect more from life 

and yes, money


 does buy comfort and you can really ENJOY life if you have money 


and follow your dreams!!  Most African Americans were taught during slavery that they would get their "richest" in Heaven--this is a lie...God 

and the universe wants you to get paid like everyone else!! That is why you have certain talents...to make a "career" out of what you are good at--not a "job" anyone can get a job...a career is built out of your talent and hard work....



life is more fun...when your doing what u love!!! You are 


special and divine for loving yourself extra, when mom is not 

around...you are always loved and if you ever feel down, email me

 and I promise I will pick you back up so that you can be the star the 

universe intended....Remember the world CANNOT shine without 

you in it!!!! WE NEVER GIVE UP!! (MY BROTHER ROB USE TO TELL ME THAT WHEN WE I SAD )... REPEAT THIS EVERY MORNING AND NIGHT...EVENTUALLY YOU WILL BELEIVE IT, FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION BECAUSE I AM DIVINE!!!

XOXO

you will be blessed beyond 


measure!!


xo


Tanya

divine purpose

knowing u have divine purpose

Hi blog family!! Don't be startled!

I decided to do a makeover ..just for fun, i like me the way i am and only wear makeup for tv...but i was thinking  maybe we should all do a mental makeover!! :)

I am saddend every time i hear of a young person, like Amy Winehouse dying. Why? because it does not matter how she went, she is gone and we have lost a person who may have been caught up in addiction BUT her voice was her tool that God/the universe allowed her to use to heal our pain.
We all have divine purpose; homeless, addicts, old, young, at some point, you touched someone's life! This is not to say your life has to be good it could be in pure chaos but if Most of us think back, we have effected somene sometime somewhere!!

Know that you have divine purpose and you are needed by the universe.
Without each and everyone of you, something may NOT get done today.
Without you Something MAY get done today, that was not  intended..
.think of how you help others,
how you love others, how you have hurt or changed others, at the end of the day when we die, ask yourself: what have I done, to change the world, starting with me.....it is never too late to change....

you are loved, divine and special have a lovely night xo

Tanya

you know what it is....walking alone..have an escape plan!

hey blog family!

this is what I taught my little brother and now i am teaching you!!


I am sure you heard about the little boy who walked alone to school last week and asked the wrong person for help! I have a few tips for you!

First: it is your parents and or guardians job to MAKE SURE YOU ARE SAFE!! it is NOT your responsibility to know better, that is why you are "young, a "kid" because you should be in a peaceful, loving home that is safe and protects you from harm-even if you are in a group home!!

Don't walk anywhere alone if you are under 13...even then if you are in a big city,
take a friend or adult with you!
 Kids in group homes are easier targets (they think)... because they don't have parents watching their back....YOU HAVE YOUR OWN BACK, by having a plan!!

use you common sense and your gut feeling, if something says, i should not-DON"T!
don't talk to strangers,
walk up to cars,
trust people that want to "help" you on the street... and the most important again.. NEVER get in any ones car!!
once you do that the trail will be hard to find you!
Try to carry a cell phone when walking alone and keep it on 911 and keep your fingers on the green button to dial, this way if someone snatches you up, the call can be traced...
even if the police get on the line while your entering, you can always say "sorry, i thought i was in danger" and hang up....there is no reason to go to a car!

If you are really lost, OK, this does happen (but should not to an 8 year old because your parents are not suppose to let you walk alone to a city school!!).. go into a store and ask the owner if you could please use there phone...if you get a safe" feeling and your instinct trust them then tell them your lost but if not just ask for the phone or tell them to call the police. 
You should never be put in this situation of being "lost" BUT if you do, don't go up to any car and have a 3 feet rule (the length of your arm) if you don't allow anyone that close, they cannot put anything over your face or attack you as easy!
Never take a drink from a stranger either, they could put something in it to make you sleepy!! wait till you get home for a drink!!
Remember if you do get in a situation and someone is attacking you and you are fighting for your life: POKE THERE EYEBALLS WITH YOUR FIRST TWO KNUCKLES--HARD!!
you only get one chance to escape and you don't want to piss them off-unless they can't see!!
 this gives them a temporary blinded spot, they can't see-
THIS IS YOUR CHANCE TO RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN IN THE DIRECTION OF PEOPLE OR POLICE- never into woods or secluded area, (if you do find a spot to hide and remember where you ran from to get out later!!!
Do me a favor, if you have to walk alone go with an adult first, have them see what stores are around have them go in and ask in an emergency can you use their phone or will they help you... have an escape plan!!

BE safe and i am sorry that i have to tell you this you should be out riding your bike enjoying your summer, but now because of this! I have to share what I know - POKING OUT EYEBALLS IN A KIDNAPPING SITUATION CAN SAVE YOUR LIFE BY GIVING YOU MORE TIME TO RUN!!! I AM AGAINST VIOLENCE OF ANY KIND- UNLESS IT IS TO SAVE YOUR LIFE OR ANOTHER!! 
remember i am NOT advocating violence! i am saying if someone is trying to kidnap you or you get in a car and realize your in danger--while you are in public or a door is open---POKE OUT THE EYEBALLS AS HARD AS YOU CAN! THIS IS YOUR CHANCE TO ESCAPE!!

BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW NOT TO TALK TO STRANGERS OR GET IN A CAR!!! 
I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR SUMMER AND STAY ALERT TO WHAT'S AROUND YOU!! XO TANYA

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words from Wallace D. Wattles -Efficient Action

Hi blog family!
 I know, summer has been fun...are you reading? writing in your journal...
. i am sharing this from another site- the orginator of the secret left a great book!
it is LIFE CHANGING if you read it and follow it!! We must learn to better ourselves, if we want success! xo Tanya

The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace D. Wattles Efficient Action

Chapter 13→

YOU must use your thought as directed in previous chapters, and begin to do what you can do where you are; and you must do ALL that you can do where you are.

You can advance only by being larger than your present place; and no man is larger than his present place who leaves undone any of the work pertaining to that place.

The world is advanced only by those who more than fill their present places.

If no man quite filled his present place, you can see that there must be a going backward in everything. Those who do not quite fill their present places are dead weight upon society, government, commerce, and industry; they must be carried along by others at a great expense. The progress of the world is retarded only by those who do not fill the places they are holding; they belong to a former age and a lower stage or plane of life, and their tendency is toward degeneration. No society could advance if every man was smaller than his place; social evolution is guided by the law of physical and mental evolution. In the animal world, evolution is caused by excess of life.

When an organism has more life than can be expressed in the functions of its own plane, it develops the organs of a higher plane, and a new species is originated.

There never would have been new species had there not been organisms which more than filled their places. The law is exactly the same for you; your getting rich depends upon your applying this principle to your own affairs.

Every day is either a successful day or a day of failure; and it is the successful days which get you what you want. If everyday is a failure, you can never get rich; while if every day is a success, you cannot fail to get rich.

If there is something that may be done today, and you do not do it, you have failed in so far as that thing is concerned; and the consequences may be more disastrous than you imagine.

You cannot foresee the results of even the most trivial act; you do not know the workings of all the forces that have been set moving in your behalf. Much may be depending on your doing some simple act; it may be the very thing which is to open the door of opportunity to very great possibilities. You can never know all the combinations which Supreme Intelligence is making for you in the world of things and of things and of human affairs; your neglect or failure to do some small thing may cause a long delay in getting what you want.

Do, every day, ALL that can be done that day.

There is, however, a limitation or qualification of the above that you must take into account.

You are not to overwork, nor to rush blindly into your business in the effort to do the greatest possible number of things in the shortest possible time.

You are not to try to do tomorrow's work today, nor to do a week's work in a day.

It is really not the number of things you do, but the EFFICIENCY of each separate action that counts.

Every act is, in itself, either a success or a failure.

Every act is, in itself, either effective or inefficient.

Every inefficient act is a failure, and if you spend your life in doing inefficient acts, your whole life will be a failure.

The more things you do, the worse for you, if all your acts are inefficient ones.

On the other hand, every efficient act is a success in itself, and if every act of your life is an efficient one, your whole life MUST be a success.

The cause of failure is doing too many things in an inefficient manner, and not doing enough things in an efficient manner.

You will see that it is a self-evident proposition that if you do not do any inefficient acts, and if you do a sufficient number of efficient acts, you will become rich. If, now, it is possible for you to make each act an efficient one, you see again that the getting of riches is reduced to an exact science, like mathematics.

The matter turns, then, on the questions whether you can make each separate act a success in itself. And this you can certainly do.

You can make each act a success, because ALL Power is working with you; and ALL Power cannot fail.

Power is at your service; and to make each act efficient you have only to put power into it.

Every action is either strong or weak; and when every one is strong, you are acting in the Certain Way which will make you rich.

Every act can be made strong and efficient by holding your vision while you are doing it, and putting the whole power of your FAITH and PURPOSE into it.

It is at this point that the people fail who separate mental power from personal action. They use the power of mind in one place and at one time, and they act in another place and at another time. So their acts are not successful in themselves; too many of them are inefficient. But if ALL Power goes into every act, no matter how commonplace, every act will be a success in itself; and as in the nature of things every success opens the way to other successes, your progress toward what you want, and the progress of what you want toward you, will become increasingly rapid.

Remember that successful action is cumulative in its results. Since the desire for more life is inherent in all things, when a man begins to move toward larger life more things attach themselves to him, and the influence of his desire is multiplied.

Do, every day, all that you can do that day, and do each act in an efficient manner.

In saying that you must hold your vision while you are doing each act, however trivial or commonplace, I do not mean to say that it is necessary at all times to see the vision distinctly to its smallest details. It should be the work of your leisure hours to use your imagination on the details of your vision, and to contemplate them until they are firmly fixed upon memory. If you wish speedy results, spend practically all your spare time in this practice.

By continuous contemplation you will get the picture of what you want, even to the smallest details, so firmly fixed upon your mind, and so completely transferred to the mind of Formless Substance, that in your working hours you need only to mentally refer to the picture to stimulate your faith and purpose, and cause your best effort to be put forth. Contemplate your picture in your leisure hours until your consciousness is so full of it that you can grasp it instantly. You will become so enthused with its bright promises that the mere thought of it will call forth the strongest energies of your whole being.

Let us again repeat our syllabus, and by slightly changing the closing statements bring it to the point we have now reached.

There is a thinking stuff from which all things are made, and which, in its original state, permeates, penetrates, and fills the interspaces of the universe.

A thought, in this substance, Produces the thing that is imaged by the thought.

Man can form things in his thought, and, by impressing his thought upon formless substance, can cause the thing he thinks about to be created.

In order to do this, man must pass from the competitive to the creative mind; he must form a clear mental picture of the things he wants, and do, with faith and purpose, all that can be done each day, doing each separate thing in an efficient manner.

Croix Sather begins his journey across America in San Diego

hi blog family!! This is my friends brother, changing the world!! look at this and help change the world!! xo Tanya

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learning how to have faith, even in hard times miracles happen!

hi blog family! look at this post from yahoo.  ( i hope you are enjoying the summer, but remember i said to read a book or two for the summer to keep your mind sharp!)

I know i hate to copy post other peoples work....

 BUT I want you all (all my blogs), (especially you teens), to read it and know that life is something we should ALWAYS value! 

even when hard times hit, 

when we lose a love one, when you have no family, 

 facing being moved to ANOTHER group home

- STILL keep your head high and know that, miracles can happen at ANY time in your life....I call this: "The last minute miracle".... 

read and understand life is like playing baseball (to a woman that is NOT in love with baseball)

....long, 

boring,

 low scores

no real contact like basketball or hockey...

 BUT just when you think your not interested......someone hits a home run! 

Then your awake and ready to watch for more action....a true fan (like a lover of life) will always be expecting something good to happen, even when your team is down and looking bad....never, ever give up hope, keep faith the size of a mustard seed!! check out this article!!

Homeless man with inheritance suffered tragedy

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– Wed Jun 22, 6:50 pm ET

SALT LAKE CITY – A homeless man whose rags-to-riches story made international headlines suffered a devastating family tragedy decades ago that may have led to his life on the streets of Salt Lake City.

A friend tells the Deseret News that Max Melitzer's wife and two friends were killed in a 1990 car crash. Melitzer was driving and, according to Karol Behling, hasn't been the same since.

Behling says Melitzer was deeply affected by the death of his wife, Janice, and his life as a transient seemed to begin after the accident. Last week, a private investigator tracked down Melitzer to deliver the life-altering news of a sizable inheritance left by a brother who died last year of cancer.

Melitzer has since left Utah to reunite with family in New York, whom he hadn't been in contact with in months.

Behling's deceased husband, Steve, knew Melitzer for more than 20 years.

"He was very much in love with his wife, I believe. And it was really hard for him — one, to have her gone and, two, to have been driving," Behling recalled Tuesday. "I'm sure that affected him a lot, and I'm sure he missed his wife a lot."

In July 1990, Melitzer was driving through Wyoming when he lost control of his car, killing his wife and two passengers, the Deseret News reports.

Behling said she recalls Melitzer lost his apartment after the crash and bounced from place to place between Ogden and Salt Lake City.

Behling last saw Melitzer in December, when he visited her husband in the hospital. She said she was surprised to hear Melitzer's family was looking for him, because he never spoke of having any family.

"I hope this works out. And I hope his family is truly interested in him because he's a good guy," Behling said.

Melitzer's family recently hired a New York law firm in an effort to locate him, and the law firm contracted with investigator David Lundberg.

Neither Lundberg nor the lawyers have disclosed the amount Melitzer will receive.

"He'd have money where he could take care of himself or hire someone to take care of him," Lundberg said. "Apparently, he does have some emotional issues. The family just wants to make sure he's set up and he's taken care of."

Others who know Melitzer say he was an example to those around him.

"He takes donations of bread and other things like that, and he tries to donate them to my ministry," said Jason Florez, who runs the homeless ministry at Mountain View Christian Assembly of God church in Sandy. "He just happens to be one of the purest hearts of all the homeless people we bring in and come and see."

Florez gave one of the critical tips Lundberg that led to finding Melitzer at Pioneer Park in downtown Salt Lake City last Saturday. He said he saw a television news report highlighting the search for Melitzer.

"I was sitting next to my wife, and I couldn't even talk. I said, `That's Max,'" Florez recalled.

Wallace D. Wattles--on getting rich chapt 10

Hi blog family!
School is done-great job! don't get comfortable, stay reading a book! keep your mind fresh! I am reading this book and wanted to share it with you. Think big, do big and be big when it comes to your life! You have great purpose and your thought and actions decides what you get in life, so think big, fair, with love! xo

You must want real life, not mere pleasure of sensual gratification. Life is the performance of function; and the individual really lives only when he performs every function, physical, mental, and spiritual, of which he is capable, without excess in any.

You do not want to get rich in order to live swinishly, for the gratification of animal desires; that is not life. But the performance of every physical function is a part of life, and no one lives completely who denies the impulses of the body a normal and healthful expression.

You do not want to get rich solely to enjoy mental pleasures, to get knowledge, to gratify ambition, to outshine others, to be famous. All these are a legitimate part of life, but the man who lives for the pleasures of the intellect alone will only have a partial life, and he will never be satisfied with his lot.

You do not want to get rich solely for the good of others, to lose yourself for the salvation of mankind, to experience the joys of philanthropy and sacrifice. The joys of the soul are only a part of life; and they are no better or nobler than any other part.

You want to get rich in order that you may eat, drink, and be merry when it is time to do these things; in order that you may surround yourself with beautiful things, see distant lands, feed your mind, and develop your intellect; in order that you may love men and do kind things, and be able to play a good part in helping the world to find truth.

But remember that extreme altruism is no better and no nobler than extreme selfishness; both are mistakes.

Get rid of the idea that God wants you to sacrifice yourself for others, and that you can secure his favor by doing so; God requires nothing of the kind.

What he wants is that you should make the most of yourself, for yourself, and for others; and you can help others more by making the most of yourself than in any other way.

You can make the most of yourself only by getting rich; so it is right and praiseworthy that you should give your first and best thought to the work of acquiring wealth.

Remember, however, that the desire of Substance is for all, and its movements must be for more life to all; it cannot be made to work for less life to any, because it is equally in all, seeking riches and life.

Intelligent Substance will make things for you, but it will not take things away from some one else and give them to you.

You must get rid of the thought of competition. You are to create, not to compete for what is already created.

You do not have to take anything away from any one.

You do not have to drive sharp bargains.

You do not have to cheat, or to take advantage. You do not need to let any man work for you for less than he earns.

You do not have to covet the property of others, or to look at it with wishful eyes; no man has anything of which you cannot have the like, and that without taking what he has away from him.

You are to become a creator, not a competitor; you are going to get what you want, but in such a way that when you get it every other man will have more than he has now.

I am aware that there are men who get a vast amount of money by proceeding in direct opposition to the statements in the paragraph above, and may add a word of explanation here. Men of the plutocratic type, who become very rich, do so sometimes purely by their extraordinary ability on the plane of competition; and sometimes they unconsciously relate themselves to Substance in its great purposes and movements for the general racial upbuilding through industrial evolution. Rockefeller, Carnegie, Morgan, et al., have been the unconscious agents of the Supreme in the necessary work of systematizing and organizing productive industry; and in the end, their work will contribute immensely toward increased life for all. Their day is nearly over; they have organized production, and will soon be succeeded by the agents of the multitude, who will organize the machinery of distribution.

The multi-millionaires are like the monster reptiles of the prehistoric eras; they play a necessary part in the evolutionary process, but the same Power which produced them will dispose of them. And it is well to bear in mind that they have never been really rich; a record of the private lives of most of this class will show that they have really been the most abject and wretched of the poor.

Riches secured on the competitive plane are never satisfactory and permanent; they are yours to-day, and another's tomorrow. Remember, if you are to become rich in a scientific and certain way, you must rise entirely out of the competitive thought. You must never think for a moment that the supply is limited. Just as soon as you begin to think that all the money is being "cornered" and controlled by bankers and others, and that you must exert yourself to get laws passed to stop this process, and so on; in that moment you drop into the competitive mind, and your power to cause creation is gone for the time being; and what is worse, you will probably arrest the creative movements you have already instituted.

KNOW that there are countless millions of dollars' worth of gold in the mountains of the earth, not yet brought to light; and know that if there were not, more would be created from Thinking Substance to supply your needs.

KNOW that the money you need will come, even if it is necessary for a thousand men to be led to the discovery of new gold mines to-morrow.

Never look at the visible supply; look always at the limitless riches in Formless Substance, and KNOW that they are coming to you as fast as you can receive and use them. Nobody, by cornering the visible supply, can prevent you from getting what is yours.

So never allow yourself to think for an instant that all the best building spots will be taken before you get ready to build your house, unless you hurry. Never worry about the trusts and combines, and get anxious for fear they will soon come to own the whole earth. Never get afraid that you will lose what you want because some other person "beats you to it." That cannot possibly happen; you are not seeking any thing that is possessed by anybody else; you are causing what you want to be created from formless Substance, and the supply is without limits. Stick to the formulated statement:--

There is a thinking stuff from which all things are made, and which, in its original state, permeates, penetrates, and fills the interspaces of the universe.

A thought, in this substance, produces the thing that is imaged by the thought.

Man can form things in his thought, and, by impressing his thought upon formless substance, can cause the thing he thinks about to be created.

keep in touch

hi blog family!

this is my brother who passed , he was my favorite person growing up because they took my sister and little brother away, I miss him and don't want you to ever go through losing a sibling so....

I know school is almost done!!! (in NY anyway)..congratulations on finishing the year!! I want you to relax this summer and be a teen BUT stay away from the drinking etc...and always be safe and make GOOD choices that will not effect your future!!!
Just some advice if you got seperated from your siblings when you went into foster care or when you all got moved again and the family or home could not take more than one of you...STAY in TOUCH! there is no reason you cannot if you can both use FB or skype...instant messaging... it can be done! talk to your worker and ask to talk to your siblings every night!!! you need to maintain a close relationship because you are all you all have!! when i aged out i only had one brother (who died almost 2 yrs ago now) and my other brother and sister i searched for...found my sisiter, baby brother was adopted off, I feel horrible because we use to visit the house and meet the family, nice people with a daughter from Elmsford, NY.... it would have been nice to be close, it took years for me to get close to my sister because of our seperation...it is never too late and you don't have to go through what we did IF you listen and hit your siblings up through FB, twitter, youtube, IM....if your over 7 you know how to set up all those accounts and do it!!! good luck and never let anyone or anything get you down, your the bomb!! xo Tanya
ps. Stay on your A-game, don't sleep cause its summer!!! read a book every day...keep your skills sharp!!

Anger to acton

Hi blog family!

I remeber my first day in foster care!

being taken away from my home, 

no matter how neglected 

or starved we were,

 it was still home...

I remember getting in the car 

with the social worker and 

waving goodbye to the nice police officer, 

I remember my first drive.

Sitting in an old office, 

lots of paperwork, 

no one really talking to us, 

eccept to ask where is mommy or

 when was the last time we saw her, 

I remember like yesterday..

Hunger, gripping my stomach, 

i had not eaten since yesterday, 

I miss that pancake mix, 

it 

sure

 was

 tasty!

My sis, always there for us, 

making us feel safe while she was around. holding my brother's hand...

time to go.. wonder where? wonder when mom is coming back?

grab

 the plastic bag...

off in a car to our first "group home they say...

 I remember the ride in the car... looking out the back of the car the street narrows and everything is farther away...but  something new is closer.....

I am angry,

 i don't know why mom has not come home in weeks....

maybe longer...she is "very sick" those people say...

someone should get her a doctor!!

by: little Tanya

 i don't know why she did not come back for us..but I do know ... i do know, i am grateful to her for NOT aborting, killing or selling me!!! For not leaving me on a step! So many kids did NOT make it to foster care!! no matter what happend is was NOT your fault AND you should be grateful for your life, you can always start over every day you wake!!! You are here for a reason, to help others to save or change a life!! 

I know my mom's addictions was serious and there was NO help back in the 60's and 70's, I know it was hard for a woman to make it with no family support and a husband back from war, dismantled.....I know at that time, i was angry! But this is good!!

that anger would be the reason i fight for so many foster kids today!

 I never forget that moment, why?

 Because as long as I feel like it is yesterday, I can feel other foster kids pain and it can motivate me to take action and help!

Some of you may have left foster care, what are you doing to not only stay more than alive BUT to help others in the system? Let all of your anger, sadness and disapoinment spark the activisim in you!

 Start a blog, write a book, screenplay, create art...whatever...just do something to help others still in.

 We cannot rely on any person OR "system" that makes money on you to be your comfort"!

 We must wakeup, stop feeling sorry for our situations and make other kids feel their is hope! 

I know some of us are focusing on the abuse, neglect or abandonment issues that got us in care BUT you must remember: you are still alive, you made it! now its time to help others and minimize your pain and suffering by going to therapy, work all those issues out in the chair AND then you can help others....

life is a lesson for all of us, what did you learn? 

how can you be of service to others in the same situation? 

You did not deserve to go through what you went through but remember you must go through SOMETHING in this life to learn and share...and become something....your body is only temporary, the mind and the good deeds you do for others are forever...because they will pass it on...pay it forward....learn to turn your stories and your anger into positive actions!!!

 you are loved, 

blessed and the universe needs you!

 xo Tanya

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Hi blog family!

National foster care awareness month was a major success! Thank you to those who attended the event and to you reading.

I spoke to some lovely (mostly boys) and girls at a group home today.
Why this is important?
 I believe young people are going through alot today, especially young males:
Having to live up to "society's idea of success, looking at the young kid in Valhalla, who was in college, a good kid, but still was murdered by the popo...because of a DWB...driving while black!
Some say he should have just "stopped his car but remember his friend that was there said, the officer told him to "move his car", even if he kept going, the officers should have thought: this kid is PROBALY in college (it was a college party)...so they should have let him "ride off" knowing, they had a liscence plate and could have got him at home!...

I understand what you males are facing, even in the media they give you role models like"snooky from jersey shore or flav flav, or Mrs. "NY" really?
These are probably good people, BUT they are only on your screen for one reason: to make money!! 
To make money and send out the wrong message is the big thing now but I beg you not to follow! 

Please remember God made you - you are the best thing ever made- failure is not an option!!
No matter where you are in your life, God has a purpose for you EVERY day that you wake!! Know that you are King and Queen of the universe, anything you want, you can have and do!! 

Summed up: The message given today to all of our young boys....(and girls)
1.     Put goals in your mind, as big as you can imagine!
2.    Write them down what it is you want to do (be singer, lawyer etc...)
3.    How long you want to take to do it..realistically...(you can't be a lawyer in 2 months...but you can   in 6 years)...
4.   and hang up what you write as goal and time to do, so you can see everyday!
5.   find out who (counselor, therapist, teacher, friend) can help you achieve that goal!

God sends you many angels, right here on earth!! 
look around and see the stranger that was willing to help, the teacher that went out of her way....angels on earth, learn to utilize them, they want the best for you and to guide you to greatness you were born to become!!
6.    Love and value ALL life, yours, his, ours!! Never do anything that will jepordize your freedom or sanity!!


know that you are loved and have divine purpose, go out into this world and be the superstars you were destined to be!!! xoxo


Tanya